Sometimes you have to give in to the inevitable.

If I’m honest, I saw this coming from a long ways off but fought it. Oh sure, I gave it lip service and toyed with the decision and pretended that I was being logical and intentional. I was fooling myself. I fought. I challenged reality and not one week later told others they were wrong to do so. That reality couldn’t be challenged, it was to be accepted. I said further that there could be no forward movement until you do accept.

Yeah. I’m a fucking hypocrite.

So all this belly aching is about Maya vs. Blender. The harsh reality is that I can’t, ethically speaking, continue to use Autodesk’s software for my projects. I have an educational license and while I am still learning, won’t be that guy that uses the software for public and potentially commercial projects.

So I’m investing heavily in Blender for Unity. I’ve bought a few classes (the Pluralsight classes for blender were… odd) and I’m going to start hacking.

On another front, I did complete the house model and learned that I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing. I kid, mostly. My UVW’s were a mess and once I pulled the full model into substance, it was clear that it needed more than “help” — It needed to find the nearest dumpster and set itself aflame.

But the experience taught me that there is a better way. Rather than building on solid block of “house,” I’m going to pivot and build the set piece as a modular house kit. Essentially, I’ll build it around 1-5 meter sections that “snap” together to make larger models. It’ll cut down on the sizes of each texture and I can create multiple texture sets per section. Only thing I haven’t figured out is how to assemble the roof.

I wish I had more progress to report. Honestly, I’ve been fighting to make myself work with this at all. I think it’s the fact that I know going into any session with Blender (or Substance, or Maya, or Unity et.al.) that I’m going to fail. I’m not good at failure. Just not something I’ve done a lot of in the past few years. I know it’s because I haven’t challenged myself to the degree I should have. I coasted.

Finding the motivation to fail is a hell of a lot harder than I ever thought it’d be. I’m not there yet.

But I’ll get there.